I haven’t been very mindful lately. I’ve been eating a lot of popcorn for dinner, doing quite a bit of sitting, and screaming at other drivers from the safety of my Toyota Carola. I got this mindfulness journal weeks ago, wrote one entry, and there it sat in the back of my car gathering dust until this morning when I remembered I should probably be mindful. Moving takes a lot out of you. You have to rewrite your entire life. Going to the grocery store is a struggle. Parts of my life that were easy and made sense are suddenly taxing and difficult and all I want is to curl up with Netflix and some two buck chuck. Some days it feels like I used all of my energy to get here, find an apartment, move, and learn my job. I did all the big stuff, and now I need to do the actual living thing. “Extraordinary Ordinary Moments” actually helped me refocus this morning. Sure, I need to be mindful every day not just in moments when I feel particularly weak.
One of the entries was titled “A Good Beginning” and it felt refreshing to be able to write about why I’m here, why I’m putting myself through this, and remember that I’m doing everything for the right reasons and to better myself and my life in the long run. I might be tired and broke, but I’m finally on the right career path with an amazing boyfriend and a tiny apartment I can call home. Being mindful gave me a moment to put things into perspective, refocus, and get back on track.
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